this hopeless hope of mine

a brilliant eclipse.
it doesn't last and i can't appreciate its beauty
fully while it does.
that's what you are.
an eclipse.
for a moment you shroud the rest of my world
and draw my attention.
but i cannot look directly.
my eyes sting when i try.
only when you're gone can i look back and,
in wistful retrospect, say,
'i wish it had lasted forever.'
for the time being,
i'll be savoring the eclipse
out of the corner of my eye,
quietly kindling this hopeless hope of mine,
a hope i know will only
hurt me when you go.